Monday, 26 July 2010

My Tulpa

Working on English Heretic, I often encounter tulpas... Last night was a case in point. After revising for my forthcoming exam, I popped to the local pub for a pint and to read Paul Devereux's "Fairy Paths And Spirit Roads". It was a nice evening and I was looking forward to planning routes to visit some of the locations Devereux talks about.

However, when I got to the pub, this young man, about 20, with a fixed gaze, insisted on giving me a high five greeting. He was quite clearly very drunk. Anyhow I decamped to the garden area.

No sooner had I sat down, than I was joined by this chap. He had two whiskey and coke's, which he drank almost immediately. He started to engage me in conversation, in between giving me multiple high-five salutations. It turned out this young man was called Andrew. He had recently come out of a mental institution in Norwich having had a psychotic episode during his first term at UEA. He was living in a half-way house in Ipswich with a number of other mentally compromised individuals.

Over the next hour, he repeatedly asked me my name, where I lived and what I did for a living. He must have drank 8 whiskeys in that time. When I replied each time to tell him my name, he expressed great surprise saying his name was Andrew too... he explained he was a member of the Ipswich Anime Society and that they had been showing films in the pub that afternoon.

The weird thing is that I have been working on my urban qliphoth and english aghora projects. For the urban qliphoth, a visit was made to an abandoned psychiatric hospital just outside Norwich. For the English Aghora project, I've been doing radio experiments at the war cemetery in Shotley. During one of my visits to Shotley, while scanning the radio waveband, I started recording a radio 4 documentary about the reclassification of the DSM-IV index. The documentary featured an interview with a paranoid schizophrenic sufferer called Andrew who had suffered his first psychotic episode while at university...

I can't help but feel the chap in the pub last night was some kind of tulpa, reified by the workings at the psych hospital and the war cemetery... What started off as a quiet evening to unwind and research, turned into an eerie Pinteresque dialogue with a phantasm of my creative experiments.

13 comments:

Cat said...

Interesting... but why assume he's your tulpa - maybe you're his ;)

Cat Vincent

Dr. Champagne said...

lol, you are right! Actually I was talking with a friend on Saturday night, and saying I'd like to become spectral... maybe i got what i wished for...

Dr. Champagne

承蘋承蘋 said...

一時的錯誤不算什麼,錯而不改才是一生中永遠且最大的錯誤..................................................

淑吳玲 said...

生命的意義,是在於活的充實;而不是在於活得長久。............................................................

王陳虹霞文均 said...

時間就是塑造生命的材料。

雅明修任 said...

困難的不在於新概念,而在於逃避舊有的概念。............................................................

王辛江淑萍康 said...

Make hay while the sun shines...................................................

446 said...

人類的聰明,並非以經驗為依歸,而是以接受經驗的行程為依歸。..................................................

偉曹琬 said...

不要去想沒拿到的東西,多想想自己手裡所擁有的..................................................

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